i probably won’t be alive.

so i’m bored out of my mind. amazingly enough, too bored to go to sleep. i mean i can feel it, i’m tired and i’m quite certain that if (i just yawned) i got into bed, i would sleep if i wanted to. but i don’t want to. for no good reason, i don’t want to sleep. i’m thinking about staying in my jeans and t-shirt and hoodie until it is time to go to class. i have class at 10. it is my history class…the one i should show up too as alert as possible. i’m thinking about making coffee…i’ve noticed that if i drink coffee after 3 pm, the latest i stay up and alert is 4 am. before, i used to drink coffee at work around 6 and i would stay up until 2 to 3 in the morning, forcing myself to sleep but relatively jittery even in bed. so, what would happen if i drink coffee now, it is 2 am right now. hmmm…. i will probably stay up…i am very lazy right now but i’m sure after a cup of coffee i’ll be doing cartwheels. if i’m going to do this, i should do something productive. i have a ton of things i could be doing. i’ve been looking up how long a person can last without sleep, and i found out that after about 48 hours, you get kind of messed up. i’ve done it before, stayed awake for 56 hours and it was such a trip. and i remember pulling allnighters, no sleep at all, and the first chance i get to close my eyes for a few minutes, i was knocked out for an hour. i felt like i was asleep for days though after that hour. i don’t plan on making this a regular thing, i love sleep, i don’t always get enough but i still get some. just not tonight it’s going to be dawn at 6:57 am, and sunrise at 7:23 am. i might catch that. i might even drive to school before then, park on the roof of my favorite parking garage, and watch the sunrise. so, i think i will make my coffee now, and i will get to work on some things. then i will take a cold shower at around 5 am. i might even come back and tell you i quit this little expedition or maybe i won’t. i just know that people don’t die from sleep deprivation, not directly anyway.

Soooooooo, i slept. from 5 pm to 12 minutes ago [it is now 630 pm]. i made it through most of the day and i even showed up to all my classes. got to school on time for the sunrise (i think sunsets kick more ass) and even drove home safely!

so about that sunrise…by then (730ish) i was kind of feeling the effects of no sleep…i mean absolutely no sleep + caffeine + brrr cold weather. i was walking around trying to find the best place to watch the sunrise (rooftop garage wasn’t cutting it), so i ended up on a bridge. i leaned against the railing because i didn’t want to just fall over, and as i leaned…i felt a lot shaking. i thought i was tripping out! i mean it felt lik my whole body was shaking…so i un-leaned against the railing, still, i could feel shaking…wtf! but, i think that’s just normally what happens on bridges, it shakes…dunno, never really spent much time on them. it made me laugh (on the inside). then after that i went to study…yup, study, for my history class. then i got my picture taken by some hotties in a photo class. but for the most part, it was a fine day.

i’m never voluntarily not sleeping again (unless i have absolutely nothing to do). and even then, it isn’t all that healthy. it was kinda fun, but kinda not. i are late for work. kbai.